Wow. In 4 days I'm going to be done with this semester. Gives me sort of a warm fuzzy feeling until I realize that in these 4 days, I'll have 3 finals. This semester I really got hit with these tests; they were usually on the same day or very close together. I could never devote all my energy into studying for one test because I was always studying for at least two others (that's not counting quizzes and stuff) all at the same time; thus my sky rocketing stress levels.
I should be studying now but I need to write a little bit. I never thought that writing could help me depressurize. I guess that's what happens when I can't really share this with people without getting a "deer in the headlights" look. LOL But it's okay.
Lately I've been pondering how great my friends are. They always cheer me on. They are sad when I am and they get excited when I do. Although they really don't know what it feels like, they at least try to put themselves in my shoes. I was frustrated in the middle of the semester with not being understood, but towards the end of the semester I met another premed mom who's got two kids with another one on the way (I may have talked about this already). I was surprised since we both belong to the same association at our university. Who would've thought? It was enlightening to hear how she was able to cope with everything and how she was taking care of her kids in the midst of all of this. Then I heard from two other moms through mommd.com who also had little kids and that helped a lot too. Maybe it was a combination of the semester ending plus finding other moms that made my stress level go down, and it's getting better.
As far as my decision goes, I need to make a list of the pros and cons of both choices (delaying or not delaying graduation). We did that for our house two years ago and it helped us see the strengths and weaknesses of each house and we made our decision based on that paper. I bet if I use the same method this time, I'll be able to come to a conclusion and feel good about it. However, I'll still try to put in as many hours as I possibly can into volunteering and all that so just in case I decide to keep my graduation date, I can at least have all of those in without rushing at the very end.
We've officially signed papers to start the process of short selling our condo. It's hard because we thought it'd be a great investment for our future, and it turned out to be the total opposite. I feel relieved that we've decided to go through with it. No one could've known the market was going to crash. It was invevitable. It'll take at least another 3 months and up to a year to close on it, so we still have time to stay there and find another place to live.
Anyway. I better go. I need to do LOTS of studying.
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