Flashbacks

Let's rewind time to just over 5 years ago. I had been accepted to the university I'm currently attending just out of high school and was experiencing the college life everyone had been talking about all throughout high school. I lived at home with my parents and my boyfriend and I had broken up for a bit of time that semester because he moved to another city. I was having all sorts of health issues because of the stress and life was just horrible that fall following graduation. I wasn't focused on my school work and everything seemed fuzzy and confusing. I was taking Elem. Chem, a low-end math class, Sociology, and Gen. Biology. I ended that semester with a 3.2 GPA, and engaged to my now-husband (he moved back eventually).
Now, 5 years later, I'm in the same state of confusion as I was then.
Yesterday I attended my first chem lab of the semester, and the memories just flooded my mind. Except the situation this time is more difficult than last time. We have to do labs on our own (compared to the partnership deal I've done all along), and there's more prep time involved. I'm still way confused with the material and I can't focus. I did just fine in Gen. Chem I, what's up with Gen. Chem II??? I still haven't figured that one out... Hopefully I will soon.
On the other hand, Calculus is heaven. Everything is crystal clear. I feel bad for the students who don't remember how to factor or do simple algebra problems. Good thing our professor is amazing and goes over the little stuff, and NEVER skips steps. It's so helpful. Speaking of him, after he told us what he had to go through with his major, I don't feel so bad for myself anymore: he graduated with a bachelor's degree in Civil Engineering, and apparently when you go on to get your Master's or PhD or what not, you have to take a COMET exam (I'm not sure on that one). Anyway, back in the day the test lasted 16 hrs, now it's 20, which is spaced out in 3 days. The last day of his test, he was given only one problem in fluid mechanics that took the entire time to solve. He had never taken the class, and he had to go read a textbook in order to solve it. The solution was 19 pages long. YIKES!!!! I should NEVER complain about my life after hearing this one!
I bombed my Physiology quiz last wednesday. I've always been horrible at counting how many dumb FADH2s and NADHs each cycle of cellular respiration uses, and that's what he concentrated on, instead of looking at the big picture ("how many pyruvates do you get from a glucose molecule?" or "how many ATPs are produced in the Electron Transport Chain???"). I just blew it off like it never happened. We can drop the lowest 5 quizzes, and this will be one of them.
As far as life at home... My son has officially entered the two year old phase. I thought his cries were bad until this week, when they've been blown into hysterical crying and kicking. I told my husband I no longer want any more kids. For real. I'm not doing this again. And unless we have an accident again, the factory has shut down. Won't get a tubal though; I'll wait until I'm 40 for that.
Then last night my husband and I went out on a date (I had almost forgotten what a 'date' was). We went to dinner and then to watch Sherlock Holmes. It was a great movie! I love the mysteries and solving situations. No wonder I want to be a doctor ;)
I've been trying to find women that live in my state that are pre-med moms. Can't seem to find any. Maybe I'm the only lunatic that's doing this here. I'm thinking of posting something in the Pre-Med advising office about a support group for pre-med moms.Hopefully I'll find another person to lean on as I walk this journey... Not that my family isn't supportive, I just need to find someone that's doing the same thing... you get my point.